Feeling: conflicted – happy and thoughtful and icky

So, I’m terrible at taking compliments.  There’s enough self doubt there still, even after years of lessons in self worth.

Out of the blue Diplomat sent me a message about how this comic reminds him of me:

I like the wording he used (quoted with permission):

“….it just reminded me how much you exemplify this conscious, communicative, self-aware approach to love. Thank you. ❤”

My first reaction is to refute it, minimize it.  Clearly I’m not together enough to deserve something like that.

But, thinking over it today, I realize that I did something that I was raised as a woman to do…not accept praise for that which I have done, especially above and beyond normal.  I was trained to just accept that this was part of my job as a woman in this world, and that it wasn’t anything special.  Humility above everything.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with a little humility, but when it comes at the expense of your self worth, that’s bullshit.

I am so full of joy that my boyfriend thinks so highly of me.  I only hope I can live up to that.