Feeling: very icky
Just got triggered by something that I had a warning on, and I don’t know, maybe I should have not read it, maybe I though I’d be ok. But no, I wasn’t. And I hate it. And I hate me for not skipping over it. But now…now I just can’t. I’m envious, and hurt, and a whole lot of other emotions I don’t have words for. I’m high, so I don’t have my usual filter…everything just comes at me. Sometimes that’s wonderful, because I can chill my brain out and just let it roll off. Now…fuck. It’s all coming at me and the shelved emotional ouch from the last few days that I thought was resolved has fallen off the shelf at me. I just want to curl up in a ball and tune out and not exist for hours.