How important is my desire for multiple romantic relationships?
To me? To the universe? To my tiny chunk of the universe? I assume that they probably mean the first….
It is not the defining feature of my existence, but it is very important to framing my paradigm.
If I had not had doubts about my high school boyfriend’s jealousy, tied to any idea of me being anything other than just his, we might have stayed together for some time when I was at university and I would have lost the chance to explore that part of me. To current me, that seems unacceptable.
There are so many people that I would not have met, so many opportunities I would not have had the chance to have, so many decisions I could not have made without it. Everything in my life has been touched by it – I would not be where I am without the opportunity and desire to pursue romantic relationships.
I would not have had the chance to fall in love with most of the people I have in my life. There are only two people I have had romantic love for that I would have had the chance to pursue: my first boyfriend and Musician. The others have had such a profound impact on my life, on how I see myself, how I see the world around me, and my daily life – both now and in the past – that I am not sure I would be the person I think of as “me” without the ability and desire to pursue multiple romantic relationships.