Currently I feel weird about my attraction to men. Okay, well, my attraction to men is complicated (and usually has been) and my attraction to non-men is much less so. Being aesthetically attracted to men who I’m not in a relationship with is an outlier to me, so definitely worth filing in a mental brain catalog when it happens.
But lately I’ve been running into an interesting phenomenon with regards to this that is, while not a new thing, is not the usual case. I’m saturated at the moment, so, for some reason, I feel much more aesthetic (and in some cases, physical) attraction for men. I wonder if not being in a position where I can’t/won’t act on it makes that attraction more easy to acknowledge and let be. It certainly makes having a friendship with some men more easy. I can acknowledge that I generally find them to be attractive individuals, without any desire to act on that.